Nightmare Of You

Dear Scene, I Wish I Was Deaf

You were one step behind in that dismal school of mine
Needle and percocet instead of books on students desks
We were so charming, but the future was alarming
And now don't you go look so proud
Yes, guess who's laughing now?

And we've learned that life is one big game
Where the winners are all getting paid
So stop dragging your feet behind
You can't live with the folks all your life
So on those days home in your car
We jerked the steering wheel to the median
Joking that we'd end our lives
But we weren't joking all the time

"Start a band or throw a brick"
You lazy hipsters make me sick
Don't clap your hands; don't start to dance
Don't let them know that you're a fan

You may be living in Manhattan
But where are you really from? (Have you forgotten?)
Kid, you may be playing your music loud
But it's drowned out by your mouth

so i really like that song. its a good one.  ok so it's 3am. today was a great day.

i didn't have school. which made it even better. i slept till 1. around 4 mike came and got me.

we went to his apartment. we ate some pizza. we chillaxed. and had an amazing time together. cause mike is an amazing guy as yall have probably gathered already. dave got there. then later on derek and kirsten got there. kyle showed up a little bit later. we all hung out. it was fun. it's always fun over there. mike told me that...he wasn't trying to freak me out..but if i had to put off college for awhile and still wanted out of the house...that his place was always open. i was like..wow..haley had just said to move in with him the other day. so. yea. he's the only guy i could see myself spending the rest of my life with. i can actually put a face at the altar now. where usually it was a blur. there's no blur anymore. there's mike. i hope this all isn't going to fast though. i mean...i dont think love has limits..or really rules. so...i think its ok for me to fall in love this fast. i hope it is. no rules. it has no rules. i can be in love. and i can feel this way this soon. because i do. i do feel this way. in 3 months. yes. i feel this way. i want to live with him. i want to marry him. i want to have his children. i want to be with him for the rest of my life. no doubt. but yes. lol. i'm done. i'm ready to go to sleep. i was so tired earlier and instead of going to sleep i got online and got carried away. goodnight.