today was great. my friends threw me a surprise party. i thought i was going to band practice...like normal. and...when i got there..they bombarded me with silly string. i walked inside and there was a cake..and pizza. aw. my friends are the best. i've never had a surprise birthday party. or games at my birthday. and they had games. my birthday isn't till tuesday..but..it was awesome. so...yea. mike, dave, kyle, brandon, krissy and derek. amazing. the best friends ever. i mean..seriously. who else would do that for me? i dont need anyone else..haha..i've got them. so all my friends here that diss me and leave me hanging and blow me off..yea..they're fags. i dont need them. haha. they're lame. i even have a best friend...who never calls me. i got to her house once every few weekends. she'd rather be hanging out with other people. which is fine. now that i have other friends. friends who care. it blew me away. it really did. i did not expect it. i was so happy. it was amazing.

i realize that i may write about mike alot. and that may get tiring sometimes. but hey...i mean..sh*t..it's my blog. lol. i just...its amazing to me how much i care about him. cause i've never felt this before. i asked someone awhile back how you knew when you're in love. and...now i know. you just know.

its like a slap in the face.

or..better yet..

a punch in the stomach.

 it takes your breath away.

leaves you wanting more.

no matter what..

you can't help but to smile..

cause you know someone

is thinking of you at the same time

that you're thinking of them.

you cant wait to see them.

you miss them ..

5 minutes after they leave.

or sooner.

you can hang out with them..

all weekend..

and when the weekends over

you still want to be with them.

you dont get tired..

or bored with them.

you laugh at the stupid things they do.

you look over the petty things that agitate you..

you love them.

for who they are.

you respect them..

and they respect you.

you're completely comfortable with them.

no matter what.

it can never be just one kiss...

always more.

you cant be too close..

but..not close enough.

one hug...

leaves you wanting more.

"bye" or "goodnight"

takes forever to say.

you can be yourself..

not someone else.

no pretending..

always real.

always honest.

always true.

but hey..thats just my impression on what love is.

love is what you make it.

and that's the way i perceive love.

i met mike on october 18. i was still dating david.  i kissed mike on november 11. yes...still with david. me and mike were 'official'' on november 25. he said he loved me on december 22. i said i love you too on december 31. i fell in love in a little over 2 months. possible? of course it is. look at me. bathing in love. lol. can't get enough of it. i cant even describe how i feel. the feeling is...overwhelming. and i love it. and i love mike. and..lol...i'll probably write more about mike. to bore you!!! hahaha! just kidding. lol. not to bore you...but to tell the world...how much i love him. one day...i will literally tell the world how much i love him. they probably already see it. i've never been so happy. never.