so. life sucks. i mean...you really have no idea how much i want to follow through with my senior summer plan. i wish it could happen. all i wanted...was to go to london. for at least a month. :/ it wont happen though. and it really bothers me. i was talking to a friend who just went to ny. he's from ireland. he's going to london soon. i told him how bad i wanted to go. he told me to go. and i told him my mum prolly wouldn't let me..and no money. he told me to ask my mum to go with me. she said plain out "i'm not going to london".  i almost wanted to cry. i'd give anything to go to london. anything. omgosh. mike wouldn't go either. he's planning on playing shows in pennsylvania and around here. so...yea. i guess i'm f*ck outta luck. :( bye.