today has been a day.

first i thought my friends had stood me up.

we were supposed to go to her cousins party. she showed up though. and we went. and it was boring. just a bunch of rednecks. kyle, her cousin, was the only cool one there. and thats sad.

i miss mikey. i didn't talk to him today. thats ok though. i can deal with that. he posted a blog on myspace saying things were gonna change when he came back. that worries me a tad. because i have no clue what he means and he didn't even call today. :(   good luck?

one day...

when life is through torturing me...

i'm gonna rape it in the a**...

with a cactus.

my favorite colors are black, yellow, lime green and red.

my eyes are blue.

i cry as much as i smile.

if i'm uncomfortable somewhere, i'll hardly talk.

i l-o-v-e to be l o v e d

i may be [fake] to you...

but i'm as [[real]] as it gets.

i'm not in the best of moods right now. and i dont know why. maybe i'm lonely. confused. hurt. haha..or maybe i'm just irritable b/c i was supposed to start my period a week ago. whatever it is..i dont like it..and all i want is to talk to mike. i think...just to know that things are cool with us will make me feel better. a lot better.

leslie's passed out in my bed.

i should be mean.

but i'm not gonna.

cause..i'm a nice person sort of.

i feel like i get walked all over sometimes.

i'm going.

signed sincerely, me.