goodbye..continued...in hort.

so yea...i got out of horticulture.  they started talking about the football game. i was like..oh wtf no. i mean..it's good our team won state, but..i'm not gonna trip on it. ya know. geez. i'm just not a football person. and i have no school spirit. oooooh well.

my day got better. french was fun. even though i hate it. and it was only fun because me and derek make it fun. without derek i'd be lost. i'd be a silly french nerd. :(  but i'm not..and that's good. i thank derek for that. plus, he's prolly one of the only people i can talk to about mike. i can't really talk to haley about him. she gives me the impression that she doesn't like him. sooooooo yea. douche truffle nut. she can not like him if she wants. but, me...i like him. a lot. a whole lot. he means the world to me. and i've only known him for such a short time. HEY! Holy Sh*t!!! there was a reason i missed the senses fail concert. the band's first show was that night. the first time i really met mike. omg. wow. things were meant to happen this way. aaahhh. that's so cool. :) that makes me happy. wwwwwoooooowwwwww. that's really awesome. geez. i'm a genius. but..it's sorta weird. who's to blame for us meeting?

anyyyyways. i read this thing in this book outloud to derek today. just b/c i wanted to. and it said "fall seven times, stand up eight" and so he started writing down lyrics. and i wrote..."your forgiveness is my weakness"  at first he didnt' get it. but...it's like..taking being forgiven for granted. so people sin over and over again. cause they know they'll be forgiven. aah..smart huh? yea...i know. i'm good. ooooh. yea. too bad i'm not a christian.

speaking of...i posted this bulletin on myspace yesterday which was about homophobia. how wrong it is. and the subject line said "if you're a homophone, you may as well not talk to me." well..i had this old friend respond saying "i guess you shouldn't talk to me then huh?" and she's like...overboard christian. she thinks its complete abomination. wtf? which..i guess i understand if you are an overboard christian...then in the bible and in God's eyes..its wrong. but..even when i was christian i didn't have a problem with it. i didn't think it was a sin either. you love who you love. derek thinks it's wrong too. but..whatever.

wow..typing really hurts my wrist. like..it's already hurt..but..it hurts it more. dammmmmnnn..i'll have to put my wrist brace back on. i take it off to type because i can't type with it on.

i'm not gonna get to see mike tonight. :(  i'm going to a chorus performance tonight. since it's haley's birthday and all..and she's gonna be there.  soooo.yea.  it's good stuff. but..i'll see him tomorrow. aaaahh....so far away. waiting for tomorrow is like...waiting for bush to take that stick out of his ass. argggg.

i hit my knee. ouch. it was a sharp pain. f*ck. yes. ouch. my bad knee. ew.

ok...um....yea.

Cowardice asks the question - is it safe?

Vanity asks the question - is it popular?

Expediency asks the question - is it political?

But conscience asks the question - is it right?

There comes a time when one must take a position that is neither
safe, popular, or political; but because it is right.

--- Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

i found that. and liked it. sooo yea.

sooooo....bye.