i went to the health department today. that was an interesting experience. a lady checked out my vagina and felt me up. lol. or something like that. it was fine though. i mean..for my first time, i wasn't freaked out or anything. it was a little awkward i mean, come on..its some stranger looking at your vagina. of course its gonna be a little awkward. but..i was ok.

today was me and and mike's 6 months. :) how exciting is that?!?

super exciting i think.

i didn't get to see him today though. that was sort of sad. i wish i could've. he had some teacher dinner thing. important. i guess. i dont know. he said he had to be there. so i believe him.

30 seconds to mars is a really good band. i really really like their songs. my favorite i think is "from yesterday" i like it a lot a lot.

i used to paint my nails black like..everynight. i haven't had them black in a long time. i just painted them though. so i'm gonna leave them black for awhile again. i like them black. it looks good on my hands. lol. and i'm gonna dress nifty tomorrow. short jean skirt, black ac/dc shirt, jelly bracelets, wristband, checkered vans, black headband thing i wear a lot, and cool makeup. i'm gonna look nifty. oh yes. very nifty. niftier than anyone at my school. geez. i should've been voted most awesome. or most different. or most nifty. or coolest dresser. or something. most unique. yes..that's it.

ce told me today that i should've been voted best eyes. i thought that was very sweet of him considering he's a douchebag and a half. [[who i used to have a crush on but dont any more because is a douchebag and a half]] yuk. i cant believe i used to like him. i almost want to deny it. and probably would if someone came up to me and asked at school. i'd laugh and them and be like "what in the world are you talking about?" yeah..i could play it off. i dont have a crush on anyone anymore. except for of course, mike. he's my crush, my best friend, my boyfriend, my lover, my soul mate. he's amazing. love love love.

for like..the past 3 days i've had teddy geiger stuck in my head. "for you i will"

its a really really pretty song. he's like..acoustic like john mayer. very cool guy. love his music. love mayers too. i love acoustic, soft voiced music. it makes me feel good about myself. but sometimes it doesn't.

like..the other day...i listened to that song "bad day" by daniel powter before i went to school. boy..that day was a depressing day. on the way to school i just sat there and looked out the window with that song rewinding over and over in my head. mike ended up calling when i was almost to school. it cheered me up for a good 20-30 minutes. but for some reason i stayed down that day.

its absolutely crazy and incredible to notice what songs can do to your mood.

jen-eck asked me today if i was scared about graduation. apparently she's scared about being a senior next year. i told her i was scared ****less. which i am. so i wasn't lieing. but..i think even though i'm scared, i'll be ok. i'll be fine. i'm not sure why i know this..but i do know it. i'll be ok. graduation will come and go and like that..it'll be done with. i'll be a graduate and i probably wont think about it much anymore. then again, it might hit hard after graduation and i might get really upset or something. and i might think about it every single day over the summer. well..maybe.

i shouldn't. i'm going to be with mike most all of the summer. we're going to the beach with his family and we're also going up to pennsylvania to see his family. i'm super stoked. i cant wait for the beach trip with them. it's gonna be fun. and i get to meet his dad. which is gonna be awesome. i'm so stoked to meet his dad. i just hope he likes me. and not just because i make mike happy. i want him to like me for me. :) which i guess if i worry about it then i'll be way to cautious and probably be more likely to slip up.  who knows?

anyways..i think i've written enough. i know i could write more but i'm not sure if i feel like it. if i do though...then i'll just write another blog.

goodnight hoes.