so..i guess i overdo things sometimes. i overreact a lot. mike brought up going to the beach with him for family vacation. him, his mum, sister, dad...etc etc. i've never met his dad. i've met him mum and sister once. and yeah...i dont want my first meeting with his dad to be at the beach on family vacation. plus, my cousin's birthday is that week. she needs me. my uncle's birthday is that week. i haven't been here for his birthday since i've known him. [[long story but i've only known him for a little over a few years]] anyways, mike takes me not wanting to go offensively. because i said that going on family vacation is a big step. and he said something like "we're two people who talk about marriage all the time. what's bigger than that?" i dont know..maybe i just dont feel like going because i wont be able to run and hide if i need to. that's my problem. i wont be able to hide. i'll have to act maturely and handle things maturely if need be. and i'm scared. i'm scared to a high degree.

solution: go to the beach with mike.

right?