i'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself.

geez. i love senses fail.

Phil Mickelson won the Masters! YAY!

I'm proud of Tiger too. I wish he would've won

but...at least he placed third.

That's still good.

He's probably beating himself up over it though.

He's a sore loser.

And i forgive him for that.

i'm tired. really tired. exhausted.

sore.

and stuff.

and i'm really really depressed that this

week is over.

LAME.

spring break..is over.

luckily..i only have 7 weeks left of school.

it should be a breeze.

and i'm not doing CITA so i'm not gonna

have anything really to stress over.

:) that makes me feel good about myself.

yayyyayayayayay.

i'm looking forward to summer.

its exciting.

i'm graduating.

Yay.

yes. yay with no exclamation point.

Are you really excited?

yes..i am excited. i'm just nervous as well.

very nervous.

scared.

emotional.

eh..you know.

its like transferring from middle school to high school.

only...you're not going back to school with the

people you've known forever.

you're going to a bigger school.

a harder school.

with people you dont know.

:(

sad.

yes.

and i have a feeling i'll loose touch with

a lot of my friends.

Mike asked me the other night :

I'm not holding you back from anything...

am i?

i told him no. he asked :

Are you sure?

i answered yes.

Was I lying?

maybe..but then again..maybe not.

he's not really holding me back.

i'm holding myself back

because i dont want to lose what i have with him.

and i feel if i go...then i'm throwing away

the best relationship i've ever been in.

i feel i'll be throwing away my future.

the only guy i've ever been able to see myself marrying.

he asked if i wanted to go to FMU.

i dont.

that was honest.

i dont want to go there.

too far away for right now.

No. Mike is not holding me back.

I love him.

I want to stay with him.

Forever.

i am a little sad right now though.

:(

a little lot sad.