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february 25

OK, so I obviously didnt go volunteering today, but that is ok because it was the last one anyways.  so its not a big deal, at least not to me.  I slept til 915 which is really nice, because i never sleep in, plus i wont get to sleep in all week, even tho i have spares. 

i go to my parents friends this afternoon.  kinda nervous about it tho, dont really know why, but i am.  I have to remember to bring my meds or im screwed.  so must make a lil note...

im in an ok mood today.  i mean, i know that i got lots of sleep,  and that i dont have to volunteer anymore, but i woke up and didnt feel excited or anything, and i really should be.  why you ask?  well, dramafest may be stressful, but at least i get to miss half my classes.  i mean what else ccould you ask for?  sure you have to work, but at least you get out of the classes that really dont do anything.  lol, dont tell my bizz teacher poof.

what else?

oh, my mom called my counsellor, ebcause my counsellor asked me if she could to make sure that i was fine.  which again makes me fele like someone says that i wasnt fine, even tho i was. so my mom calls, and leaves a message.  aw man, i know that my mom wants to meet my counsellor, but i dont want her to.  i mean, im scared.  i know that we are supposed to work through some problems that we have, but for some reason, my mom always makes people i know take her side.  its so frustraiting.

GRRRR!!!!!!!!

anyway, im gonn ago watch tv now... so ttyl all

 - Randii -

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{ 1:34 PM, Feb. 25, 2006 } { Posted by missbhaven83 }

Hey,
I have been reading your blogs and it's funny because I see a lot of me in you. I don't know all the reasons why you feel like you'd be happier not living this life you are living. It seems like your family is a large web that you seemed to have been caught in. I am not sure there is anyone in your family circle that really feels for you or understands your recent decisions. I know that I use to run away, try to commit suicide and hurt my family for all personal reasons. But honestly I think I just wanted to finally be noticed. No one will ever really understand why you feel like hurting yourself and you cant really expect them too. I am not a judging person and I believe that everyone makes decisions that work for them and who am I to tell them differently. I use to beg God to take me away because I was so unhappy with my life. But what I have come to realize that everything changes. Your life a year from now will be totally different and who is to say that you won't be happy. It's rough I know and it's even harder when people "try" to give advice and it feels like who are you? you don't me or my situation. But I have been in your shoes and I have dissapointed my family and "scared" certain people with my behavior. And I know what it feels like to feel empty. If you ever need someone to vent to or talk to...I am here....La Bella Vita is my blog. Take care

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{ 12:12 AM, Feb. 26, 2006 } { Posted by Lyndsey }

You should have called Pride Stables. They called US looking for YOU. See comment on the 24th.