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february 24 - mega blog

OK, so today was ok, I only went to 2 classes, so it was cool.  Math and English, but I didnt skip, my business class was cancelled.

So, I had an alright day, my counsellor even called to see how I was... I'm kinda unsure how to feel about it tho, because she called 3 times to make sure that I was ok. which made me feel like she was told by someone that I really wasnt ok, even tho I was.

Poof didnt believe that I was fine either.  She was like, "do i have to call the hospital?" and I was like "no, im fine" and she didnt believe me, because she kept asking me.  which concerns me because i only ever have told her the truth.  and that makes me mad, because why shouldnt she believe me if i have never given her reason to not believe me?  I mean, sure, if i had lied to her before, maybe it would make sense for her to be worried about me.  but i told her i felt fine because i did, and why cuoldnt she jsut leave me alone?

I mean, today wasnt spectacular, and next week will be hell im sure.  its dramafest week, hello stress.

why hello stress?  well, dramafest means that i will be running around the school, trying to make other schools happy, while they are stressed because of their plays and its a competition.  plus, i wont be in most of my classes, i have to go to english and math, but i wont be in business or parenting which means i will have to catch up at some time.  we are at school from 8am to 11pm every night.  wonderful, no sleep for me!  but hey, sleep is overrated anyway.

what else?  oh, im still upset that my parents dont trust me to be alone this weekend, i have to go to a friends, and i like em and all, but i wish i didnt need to be babysat.  i spose that is what happens after you try and commit suicide tho.  i mean, i cant say that i blame them.  and if i was them, id prolly do it too.

oh well.

what else?

hmmm.....  well, nothing that i can think of at the moment, but i might blog again soon, because it really does help with the cutting and the venting.  i mean, i have a hard time saying no and taking care of myself, so this is a good way for me to do both.  i can say no all i want in my blogs and nobody can say boo about it.  HAHAHAH!

ahem... so, i think that is it for the moment.  im sure if i see poof online tonight i will prolly add to this blog or maybe even start a new one, im not sure tho.

oh  i know what else.  i tried to find my info for university applications, and i cleand ,my room and everythign and i still couldnt find it, so im thinking maybe i accidently left it at lyndseys.  i called earlier, but lyndseys mom was supposed to call back and she didnt.  so i hope that she calls tomorrow morning because im think ing of not going volunteering tomorrow again.  i just dont want to do it anymore, its not like they miss me anyway, i mean,t ehre are only a few sessions left, so im sure it doesnt matter if i go or not.  and its not like i do a lot. i mean, shoveling stalls is not fun.  and they have people that can do that already.

oh well.

i think that is it now.  wow this was a mega blog, congrats if you made it all the way through my very messy thought process. (you should see my rough work for essays, its so much worse!)

ttyl all

 - Randii -

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{ 12:08 AM, Feb. 26, 2006 } { Posted by Lyndsey }

By the way, they do miss you. They called today wondering where you were. Besides the fact that if you made the commitment you should be there. I AM talking about volunteering. Your university informatino is not here, at least if I have any idea what you are talking about. Although there is mail if you want it. My mom didn't get the message until it was too late to find you and we don't have the phone number to your mom's house. We have your cell, and that's what we give anyone who's lokoing for you, including Pride Stables.