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Progress?

OK, so I was doing pretty well, I mean, I cut this weekend, yeah, but I was doing pretty well, because I didn't do it as often. 

Today, though, I was in the bath, and was looking at my arms.  They are healing pretty well, but they were soft and I picked at them... it's kind of gross, now that I think about it, but so are some of the other things that seem to be wrong with me. (i.e. can't eat, when I do, vomit almost right away... really gross.  Sometimes I don't even have to eat anything and it's just stomache acids and water that come up... sorry, TMI)

Anyway, I cut again, when I was in the bath, so that I can keep it clean... and I guess so that I can cut deeper.

Anywho, it's kind of pointless, but I popped my bubblepop wrap after... at least it's stopped me from cutting again.  But I don't like this bubblepop wrap as much because it's the big bubbles... they aren't as fun.  But my tech teacher tried, so I figured that I had to try, otherwise what's the point in getting help?

Oh yeah, my counsellor, she's going to be mad at me because I didn't make an appointment, so when she asks me I'll tell her the truth.  But if she makes me call her, I won't.  I will leave.  She can't make me.  I will call when I'm ready too!

Anyway, that's all for now.

ttyl

- Randii -

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{ 5:46 PM, Nov. 14, 2005 } { Posted by passion4pink }

You know whats best for you.
Sometimes its easier, for some one to take baby steps.
Love Ya,
Passion