The Journey

The F Word

Food is the word of the day.  I just don't understand my thinking.  Yesterday I write in here that I'm finding guilt still in eating sweets.  And what do I do??  I eat sweets yesterday.  A Fudge Round, ice cream, and a Take 5 candy bar.  Not all at once of course.  And afterwards, I feel the guilt.  One thing I do find comforting about this is that I don't feel so guilty that I don't feel the need to get rid of my food.  I could never do that to myself.  I coped with my disgusting food choices by working out this morning.  I did a 30 minute workout and felt much better about myself.

So, I think I might of found a balance of thinbgs.  I need will power, and most times I have that.  I'm PMSing this week,a nd I think that's part of the problem.  And if I eat right and have sweets in extreme moderation, with a combination of working out, I think I'll be fine.  And my guilt won't be as bad.  Kelly and Lena's comments have helped grately.  And I've thought about them in the past 24 hours.  Moderation is the key to happiness.

Not much  else to say.  I'm going shopping tonight for summer clothes.  Should be interesting to see what I come up with.

Ashley

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3:13 AM, June 6, 2006 .. Posted by mothtoaflame

Honey, I am sorry you are struggling so much with food at the moment. I know how difficult and confusing and frustrating and tiring it all can be. Chin up honey, and don't let this get to the point where it's all you think about. I hope it doesn't.

Xxxxxxxx