Geoff.

I met this guy online. His name is Geoff. He seems like a nice guy. He's interested in me. We talked online a few times. Then one night while as work he just showed up. I was embarrassed at first but we were slow so I got to talk to him for awhile. He's a big guy. Bigger than Bar. Not fatter just bigger. He looks a lot stronger too. He makes good money. He owns two harley Davidsons, a sweet diesal truck, a fishing boat. etc. He seems like a sweet guy but i've been fooled before. I'm not sure I even want to get back into the whole relationship thing. I don't know if i'm scared or if I just don't believe in "the happily ever after" stuff anymore. I feel like i wasted three years with Bar and I don't want to go through that again. The other thing is that this guys myspace friends list is filled with girls. He reminds me so much of Bar that the alarm bells are going off in my head. I don't want to go through that jealousy thing again. Is he the type that will chase down any girl who shows interest? Or does he really like me for me? I hate this. I wish I could just get over my insecurities. I just want to be happy and secure, not only for me but for the boys as well. I don't want guys going in and out of their lives. It's bad enough that Bar is doing that to Jake. Bar will go through 15 girls before jakes old enough to ride a bike. Not because he's a player but because no one can stand him for that long. He comes off as a sweet misunderstood, underappreciated guy at first but it doesn't take long to realize that he's just an asshole who knows how to prey on others emotions. I'm afraid that Geoff has mastered the same scam. We are also so far apart. He lives a little more than an hour away. We also have conflicting schedules he works mornings I work nights. He works weekdays, I never get weekends off. This could get complicated.

11:34 PM - Jun. 15, 2007 - post comment