I don't want to jinx myself but....

I have been doing really well with my diet and i've been walking around 3 miles a day. I walked 4 today. It seems like slow progress but it will be worth it a few months from now. I'm hoping that I can get my cardio fitness up to the level that I will need it to be for the Academy. I think that is the only part I am going to have a hard time with. My strength i'm not worried about, although I'll work on that as well. Everyone around me doesn't seem to be very supportive or what i'm doing, i think they all think I will give up on it or that I won't make it. I am determined to do this though, my life has been stagnant for too long and it's not going to change without some hard work.

Aidan has been acting really funny lately. I'm not sure how to explain it. I think it's partly regression because of his brother, but he seems to be off. Like he's not really there. I try to calm him down so we can talk but he has just been too off the wall. He laughs all the time but it doesn't seem like real laughter, like he's doing it just because he thinks he's supposed to. It's this stupid house, I know it is. It's like he's retreating into his mind so he doesn't have to listen to the craziness. I do the same sometimes. I hate it here.

11:41 PM - Apr. 19, 2007 - post comment