my birthday

So nothing has changed. Bar is still my never present boyfriend who treats me like dirt and still feel very alone. I have my beautiful babies, but it would be nice to have someone to share them with. My birthday went by pretty uneventfully. 26 is a depressing age. It's closer to 30 than it is to 20...i'm officially getting older. Bar got me nothing for my birthday and we didn't do anything because there was no possible way he could get out of firemens field day training, which is basically a bunch of rednecks getting drunk and playing with fire equipment. He didn't seem to have a problem getting out of training for a party and for am jam next week. I guess you have to have your priorites. He always promises..and always breaks them.

I did have a nice time with Lena on my birthday, so it wasn't a complete loss.

Dean has been being really awful to me lately. He told me that if I didn't want to go home to shut my f**** mouth. He has never talked to me like that before. All of  sudden he hates me and I dont' know why. I'm sure that it's something that one of the other girls said or something lisa did but I don't know how to fix it. Something tells me that this summer is going to suck.

3:22 PM - May. 19, 2006 - post comment