Just so you know

Things have been going a lot better for me.  Yes, I know what you're thinking....thank god!  Me and my boyfriend came to an agreement.  He told me that I was sufficating him.  Wow! I know isn't that kinda harsh.  So I backed off majorly.  I think taking a step back from my relationship is really helping me.  I don't call him during the day, I don't ask him a million questions and when he tells me what what he is doing....I just say, "Okay,whatever".  And let me tell you this is working in my advantage already.  He seems different, he calls me at work and wants to know what I am doing all the time.  I guess I just realized somethings about myself.  He feel in love with me at sometime and I bet it was when I just was being myself.  I saw my girlfriends on Friday night I remembered how much I really like myself.  I was funny, confident and just didn't care about anything.  Regardless I had a great time.  I remembered the old single me.  Who knows how long this feeling will last with me feeling the way I do right now.  But I will tell you this...it feels good.  I really love Benny, honestly, truly but he has plans for his life and so do I.  And being in love doesn't mean putting my life on hold or to the side.  He certainly isn't.  I have dreams for myself and I am sticking to them.  I am starting to love my job being a travel agent.  Today I sold a $2,100 trip which isn't a lot of money but it felt good.  I am a honest person which at times works majorly in my advantage and other times no so much.  But I am bad liar, plain and simple.  But as for today....today is actually Fat Tuesday and I was celebrating it last week.  My whole office thought last Tuesday was Fat Tuesday.  But my man is going out tonight with some friends and I was suppose to go out too.  I don't know if it's actually going to happen but its my best friend's Laura birthday.  She is a leap year baby!  But anyway everyone have a great Fat Tuesday and party it up...adios!

5:40 PM - Feb. 28, 2006 - post comment

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Hey,
this entry really helped me out ! I have been dating a guy for 9 mos and at first it was really wonderful, magical. but lately it seems like he is less enthused and when i read your words about he fell in love when u were just being yourself, i was like HEY! That's true for me too lol here i am stressing , asking him a billion questions when i should just take a step back, i know the same methods don't work for everyone and every relationship but i KNOW that i've been smothering him lol and i have taking steps back before and he always comes running and calling, it's just i'm so in love with him i feel the need to say it like 346435436 times a day lol anyway, this is MzGuided, somehow i can't log in, but thanks!

Anonymous - 12:36 PM - Mar. 4, 2006

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