Angry girl today

I am in a really bad, pissed off, angry mood right now.  I think it has progressed through the day.  I guess you can just I am not happy.  Things have this way of crashing down on me and all I can do is cover my head and wait till its over.  But the thing is that I am tired and just sick of it all.  Okay so today this lady at Dunkin Donuts screamed at me.  I am the youngest person that works at my job, so almost once a day I go get coffee and muffins and stuff for people at work.  Everyday it turns out to be like five or six things that I need to order.  And the people that work their have accents so its hard for me to understand them.  So some girl behind the counter yells at me.  I gave her a look like "one more word that comes out of your mouth will be your last" stare.  Needless to say she kept her mouth shut the rest of the time I was there.  I am sick of being in a messed up relationship, sick of making excuses, sick of defending, sick of dealing with all of it.  I feel like I did this all to myself and maybe if I just didn't care that he would actually treat me better.   I don't know I think its time I gave him a taste of his own medicine because that seems to be the only time he aknowledges me.  I am a stupid, stupid girl.  Trust me this isn't the worst thing that could happen to me and I am not complaining about my life because I am the one that makes my own choices.  But I am just frustrated and a little pissed off at myself for letting it get this far.  But hey I am only human.  Just another day and I am sure tomorrow will be better.  Just needed to vent     

2:48 PM - Feb. 14, 2006 - post comment