My Destiny

Reading Memoirs of Geisha really had me thinking about destiny: 

  Some people believe that before we live we sit and write out the plan in which we want our life to follow.  Some people believe that every person you meet in this life is someone you once knew in a previous one.  Kind of creepy, huh?  I am still not sure about all of that, but I do believe that we each write our own destiny.  In the book they are very supersitious women, and reading an almanac is how they based most of the decisions of their life.  If the almanac said,"a bad day to travel east" meant that they didn't leave the house that day.  I am not critizing this belief, because we each have our own, but I don't think you ever really live if you always play things safe.  I really believe that when you go against the grain and do the opposite of what some horoscope is telling you to do is when you actually experience real life.  Some people know that they are not destined to live a long life.  My mom always told me that even at nine years old she knew her mother/my grandmother would not live a long life.  It is funny to me that even so young she could see her mothers destiny.  And at the young age of 39 she was murdered.  But was that her destiny? 

  Did you ever really look at a strangers face that you don't know and read all the wrinkles.  Each wrinkle tends to symbolize something different that happened in their own life and has left a mark to remember it.  Each wrinkle could be a lost love, a childhood memory, a stressful job, a troubled moment, or even a deep secret.  The trouble with destiny I think is defining it.  Because to each person it means something different.  To me destiny is something I must write for myself.  When I was five we had a video camera....and this one video my mom asked me,"what do want to be when you grow up?".  A question you are asked until your at least eighteen.  So innocently I answered "a cheerleader".  Wow, have times changed.  My destiny is to make people see me for who I am really am.  I always loved writing but still lack the confidence in knowing I could actually do something with it.  I would have loved to start my own magazine and have a plus size Miss America.  No matter what I a destined to make my mark on the world, even if that means I only touch one person.  I am destined to be "something" but I just don't know what yet. But I am content with a being a good person.  What is your destiny?     

10:12 AM - Jan. 26, 2006 - post comment

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beautifully written. i think my destiny is to be alone.
thanks for the comments and have a wonderful day,
C.

4everlostnalone - 1:02 AM - Jan. 29, 2006

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