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Oh geez...Okay so here we go...new update: Last night went extremely well again. He took me to this really nice bar/club in old city called 114. They played house music upstairs and something different downstairs. We just hung out and drank some beers, smoke some cigarettes and kissed a lot. It was nice because I got down there a little early and we walked around the city which I really like to do. I feel like I am dealing with more classy guys now. Guys that actually like to go do things, take me places, show me off. It's such a different feeling. So last night after I stayed out way too late I called Steve(I know I know don't judge me...date with one guy call another) and our conversation was like our normal ones where I try to crack him up and he laughs AT me and I flirt. But it felt a little different than usual...it felt a little more like we liked each other. I asked me about my date and I could tell he was little weird about it all but oh well there is no ring on my finger. I don't know if I am any good at this dating stuff...I can't be a player. I am not good at it. BUT....Will was texting me the whole night. It was kind of akward because he was texting me when I was out so on the DL I was texting him small short things back. He said in the messages that he thinks I like Steve and he just wasn't nice. So I got pissed and left a nasty text on his phone..don't piss me off is a good lesson for people to learn. I am an extremely nice, good hearted person but if you push me..watch out. So I had to hear his side of things because we are all human and all make mistakes. And texting isn't exactly so easy to understand ex. when you have a nice little buzz. So me and Will talked just a few minutes ago and he explained a lot of things to me which made sense. I kind of have the idea that he wants to hook up but thats all he really wants. I am not looking to hurt Steve. I know that me hooking up with Will would hurt him and I know that things wouldn't be the same. Hooking up with Will would not be worth it. Isn't it funny how my life has changed so much...my entries from even a few weeks ago are soooo different. I was missing out on all this hot, single, nice guys! So I guess that everything happens for a reason in life...so cliche I know. BUT I really believe that me breaking up with Benny was a major positive for me as a person. I am starting to understand myself and actually life myself now. But I don't want to be this different person just because a few guys are showing interest in me. I know I need to get my head in the right place but it feels so good to have guys want me and to look at me and think I am pretty and funny. I am not bragging in any means but I think all girls like positive attention from guys. I know that so many girls wouldn't admit to it but most girls like when a guy wants us. Like really wants you. Oh geez...I need to stop. I am sorry for anyone that reads my blog and is what is this girl thinking? Or that I am boy crazy...not really. Alright I think thats enough of my boy troubles. xoxoxo me11:51 AM - Apr. 20, 2006 - post comment
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