Hung Over

  So today I am a bit hung over.  I had a fun time last night with some new friends.  We went to this bar called Dirty Nelly's and danced and drank and talked all night.  By 1:00 I was pretty much gone and ready to pass out. I ran into some old highschool friends that haven't seen in forever and I told them about Mike "Chang" was his nickname.  They were so surprised when I told them the news and I could tell they were shaken up by it. 

  I feel a bit bummed today but I think its only because I am tired.  It's my own fault...you would think I would learn my lesson about drinking on a work night.  It seems to me that everyone is breaking up recently. One girl I knew when I was younger and found out was engaged(shopping for dress when I saw her) broke off her engagment.  Jay Park her ex-fiance was at the bar last night and seemed really a mess about it.  I think that my situation could have been much worse.  But when it comes to guys I just can't win.  I am not trying to have this deep intimate relationship with these guys but just friends.  Every guy that I meet thinks I am trying to get in their pants.  Example:  Last night I tried talking to these guys I just talked to them like my own friends.  Nothing flirty or uncomfortable....the one guy that would have been my "type" was such an jerk about it.  He kind of blew me off  and it doesn't take much to turn me off.  Later he started talking to me asking me questions and we had a good conversation.  We talked about music, work and found out we live in the same complex.  And after all that he just stopped talking to me, got quiet and then left shortly after.  I really liked this guy...I thought we would at least be friends...exchange numbers, hang out.  But, no.  I am not looking for love...well not really...I don't want to be a liar...I want to find love.  But honestly trying to find guy friends is exhausting.  Are there any nice guys out there?? Where have they gone?  I know they exsist.  But I guess I will just keep living my life, hoping to find a nice guy to be friends with...thats it friends! I have  lots to do today and not enough time to do it all.  Laundry, cleaning, sleeping...not much time to work with.  This is Gods way of punishing me for drinking too much!jk.  I am sorry, I promise I will be a better girl. 

1:10 AM - Apr. 5, 2006 - post comment

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too much promises last time form both of us, dont you think? i also made some promises recently...
but now i think we shouldnt change ourselves only because we want to fit someone or something. we are good enough to be happy, right? my last weeks wasnt quite happy though, so much troubles. i know you also have to go through a very hard time now, but please dont change, be as you are and i hope everything turns out to be well in the end :)
have a good day, tara

lena - 11:25 PM - Apr. 5, 2006

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