New goals

Okay so I am setting a new goals for myself today...

First I am going to try to keep my journal entries positive.  No more negative entries.  Second I am going to try take each day as they come.  I think I am stressing out about the what happens next instead of dealing with whats going on right now.  I had a pretty rude awakening last night.  I am without a doubt extremely unhappy with my body.  I know this topic is not a positive one but bare with me.  Me and my mom went shopping last night because I have a few events coming up where I need some nice outfits. I have gone up at least two sizes since last year.  I know it's extremely scary for me to even type this.  I was a pretty skinny little girl and I played lots of sports.  I didn't really start getting heavier till my parents split up.  I have had eating issues in a nut shell.  Trust me when I say I am not a size 2 but I have curves.  I just realized last night that I have let my body go.  If I could change one thing about me it would be hands down my whole body.  So today I am starting fresh... I am not trying to looking for the long run picture just now but just today.  My parents are bringing over an olipitcal tonight so I can start working out and I am extremely excited.  I am going to start a routine for myself.  I can't wait to start liking my body again.  I know it's weird but I really have made up in my mind that I am going to do this.  I really think that losing weight would do a lot for me.  I think I could really start to accept myself and be happy in my life.  I know that it seems so silly to think that losing weight could really change someone but for me I definitely think it could.  So I am pretty excited...I am getting my life back!!!  It is really time I took better care of myself.   

11:36 AM - Mar. 30, 2006 - post comment

hi, tara

i like your positive thinking!!! you do a great job!
have a great weekend and take cares,
lena
P.S. i opened the access to all the entries .... i was so silly

lena - 9:59 PM - Mar. 30, 2006

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