friends...

Posted on Feb. 3, 2006 at 13:03 - Post Comment

I have just re-read some of my blogs and come to the conclusion that most of them sound too happy. Well... today i am in a quite melancholic way just because i am feeling quite lonely. I havent seen almost all my friends for ages. All i have now is work and family. Yesterday there was a very good family evening - i played with my niece, she was so happy because her aunt lena doesnt play with her very often because of being busy and tired  after stressful working days. But you will not believe how beautiful the words "I love you" sound when you hear them from a 2 years old child  In such moments you dream to have your own children and to hear this from them. Well ... i sure will not have any children in this year and i suppose in the next one too. What brings me back to the question of loneliness.

It is strange how lonely one can feel on the planet where 6 mlrd people live. There is a limited number of people i communicate now - people in the office, my family, some net friends, and  almost no people from my past life - no schol friends, no university friends. Sometimes i cant understand can i call this a friendship at all. I mean they are real, live here in my city but they rare answer the calls and never call by themselves. People whom i never have seen in personal know more about me and my life than the so called friends, who are busy with their lives, have children, work and dont want to let anyone from the past in their lives. Why? I dont know.  May be i dont understand it, may be i am not like them, just a bit different.   But anyways i am happy that i am different, even when sometimes i feel loneliness much more than i would like to.

Sorry when i was a little more pessimistic than usual,

Have a great day everyone

I wonder

Posted by Anonymous on Feb. 4, 2006 at 02:51-Link

how you are always able to ask such thought provoking questions. I must salute you for that!! :)
I don't think you can call them real friends if they really do what you have written. But still it's too early to judge anyone, given the short timespan. It's maybe that they are busy with their lives and struggling to get it all fixed, or there maybe other reasons. Well, I amn't saying that what they are doing is all right, but give them sometime (a year at least). Only then you will know whether they are real or just an opportunistic friend. I hope that helps.

Have a good day!

with love,
abhay