i am ok

Posted on Sep. 28, 2006 at 20:15 - Post Comment

just an update to say that i am good... well... not really good, but it is ok... i am getting used to it. i managed to close one part of my soul from the entire world and from myself. it is like i made all my emotions sleep and they will wake up one day... i know that on that day it will be extremely hard to deal with them but i am ready to it if now i get some days of calm life when i dont cry about everything, when i dont think about..., when i do not suffer because my heart is closed and i dont want to let anyone in until the right moment comes. all i know that i am ready to wait for this moment as long as it is needed. i have my whole life for this..

it is indeed difficult to make one part of your heart hide from others, close from all the impact - i dont know for how long i will be able to maintain this, but it really doesnt matter because .. i dont know why, just so..  

Heart...

Posted by abhay on Sep. 28, 2006 at 21:27-Link

I know, Lena & I have great faith in you that you are going to manage this very successfully. :) But is your heart really closed, even for me? ;)

Have a wonderdul day, Lena!