Posted on Sep. 11, 2006 at 09:45 - Post Comment

yesterday before i fell asleep i had had a very nice conversation with myself. i seldom talk to myself and the conversation yesterday was really very informative ))

i would like to reproduct it here but i cant remember what i was talking about. i only have impression it was a good one ))

i know life is going on, and i dont have the right to be sad and depressed but i cant change now anymore. 

in addition to all the problems i got sick. i have fever every day and i know i should go to the doctor but i again am afraid of what i can hear.. it is difficult to explain .. i just dont want to go there anymore. it costs me too much powers..

i dont want to believe it but i'm afraid i have no choice.. "life is ours for making"? not at all!!! because we always depend on other people, on people we love, on people we used to be with.. i dont want to depend anymore but it is hard to get rid of the feeling that it is impossible.. may be i am weak... yes, sure.. i am weak but who cares...

and thank you, karen for the comment. i know you are always there as a friend ))

and even though i never leave comments to u, i always read ))

have a good day, everyone else  

I am reading

Posted by abhay on Sep. 12, 2006 at 20:10-Link

Have a good day, Lena!

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Posted by lena on Sep. 12, 2006 at 20:13-Link

i know you are, abhay...
i know ))