i need a system

Posted on Aug. 29, 2006 at 20:52 - Post Comment

my brain is exploding right now. i have too many thoughts in my head and need to systematyze them. i have such a chaos of the thoughts that now i really need a system...

so i start

1. last few weeks were really good

2. no bad dreams

3. no pains

4. no chocolate - i still have the chocolate bar bought 2 weeks ago and feel really sad i cant eat because it may cause pains

5. i dont want to go to work - seems the vacation was too long and i need more time to get used to work again

6. we have family problems. My mother and sister have a war because they dont have a mutual concept of how to bring up alexandra. i am in the middle of the war and since they dont talk with each other i have to inform both of them what is going on

7. i want children. i really do want my own children - at least 2!!!

8. i try to deal with the feeling of not being able to be with the one i love - it is hard, sometimes unbearable, but i feel the support and that really means a lot for me

9. people dont comment on my blog anymore, i guess i am becoming boring to read, so i promise i will change :)

10. i havent watched a decent movie for a while. may be it is because of summer, no good movies in this season?

11. i missed the beginning of USOpen - what is happening to me???? i really like tennis :))

12. last weekend i visited my university friends - pity that we dont get to see each other often :(, but it is life and we all have our own paths

13. i hate it everytime when he isnt able to come online, though i know it is not his fault. he really has to work so hard

14. i worry too much - just about everything

15. i changed - at least people say i did )) - i'm not sure if it is true but at least i know it is for good. we all change a lot throughout the life, a normal process of human evolution :)

16. i can understand english speech better :)))) though my speaking activities are still far from perfect :P - but i am working on it (sometimes i really catch myself on talking with.... me, weird, isnt it?)

17. i hate my internet connection - it fails too often :(

18. i bought a new book today but i am not sure if i start reading it today. i'm afraid that if its good, i wont sleep again ))) - i always do it when the book is really interesting

19. life is good, sometimes really unfair to us but i try to think positive and find powers to live my life as best as i can

20. i'm not sure if its all, if it is not - i will add something later )))

21. the most importand thing is that i am HAPPY, no matter what life brings for us - i am happy because i have you ))

22. have a good day, everyone and please be nice to all people around you. treat people as you want to be treated )))

P.S. (added later) i dont like this layout anymore - it is too....pink ))) will change it in the next few days. May be i'll make it yellow or red (no, not red!), may be green :)