pains, nightmares and more

Posted on Jul. 26, 2006 at 10:46 - Post Comment

some news:

good:

my friend from germany called me yesterday night and we talked for one hour about nothing and everything... seems she needs to talk to me exactly as i need to talk to her, we will go out tomorrow together, this will be fun, i hope. since she got married and moved to germany we havent got many chances to talk to each other. and i never thought i will miss her so much. but yesterday i realized that i really did miss her. she is one of few people whom i can trust completely.

almost no pains, just some uncomfortable feelings in the stomach area, and pains are not so strong as before.. i guess i will survive this time :)

try to think positive

actually thats all about good news

bad:

still having nightmares, the one last night was something absolutely different, i dont know how to react when you see that you are dead...

still reading "harry potter", not that it is bad, just it means that i am not ready yet to live my life without any support, i have my mind to be occupied with something in order not to think a lot

still sleeping with my teddy bear like a little child, i still need some protection which i cant get and thats very sad.

well...there is something else but i will keep it to myself for now.