life is what we make of itPosted on Apr. 10, 2006 at 11:33 - Post Comment
first of all i want to say that i am stupid. i have to re-write this entry for the third time because i accidentally opened another window (2 times)!!! and everything i typed down just disappeared. anyways i am very stubborn and will continue no matter how often i will make this mistake and open other windows. last weeks i had it very hard on me, my illness, depression, pains, stress on work. all i thought was that life is extremely hard and unfair. but now i guess i was wrong. i had pretty much time to think about it, especially last night when i got only 2 hours of sleep because of nightmares i was having. when (after 2 hours of sleep) i realized that there is no chance i would fall asleep again, i went to the kitchen (a very comfortable place), got some tea and the intensive thought process began. i've come to the conclusion that life is really what we make of it. and when something goes wrong it is only our fault. so when i am not happy it is only my problem, when i am happy it is also my problem. by the way, can being happy be a problem? i'm not sure but when you are happy you want more from life and you make higher demands on life. can someone be completely happy? i guess - no! i am happy right now, even when things are not very easy for me and arent getting much easier either. but i want to have more happiness, so here is my problem. is it possible to have more happiness or not? does it depend only on me or not? do i have too high demands, may be i should content myself with whatever i have right now? so u see that even being happy brings some problems. but back to "life". life is what we make of it. it is not only a wish to be happy, it is also our actions which we take to be happy. the main point here is that you should do the 'right' action. and 'right' is very different for everyone. what is 'right' for me is not necessary 'right' for someone else. so as you can see, the main point in life is to find people who has the same idea of 'right' as you have. and the biggest luck is when you happen to meet someone who is not only a 'right' person for you, but for whom you are the only 'right' person. when you are sure that he/she is then you are really lucky. but this is not that easy, you can be looking for him/her for the whole life. and you can never find him/her. but in this case it is not the fault of life, it is not that life is unfair, it is only your fault, it means you were not trying hard to get what you want to. Life is what we make of it. Never give up. Be strong. Dont think that life will help you. in the end it is you who help the life. you are the one who build up your own life. but dont understand me wrong. if something bad happens it doesnt mean that it is your fault, it only means that there is another trial on your way to happiness. when you have many of them or when you feel that your black period is too long believe that after every bad period there sure will be a very good one. when you have to go through bad times, be sure that you will be rewarded in the end, but only if you are strong enough and dont give up. it is not life that is unfair to u, it is you who is unfair to life. i will try to be happy with whatever i can get now. and as i am used to say last months: the best way out is always through
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