crying

Posted on Mar. 31, 2006 at 12:36 - Post Comment

the day doesnt become any easier, i feel how my fever is getting higher but i cant do anything about it, thank god i could lessen my pains by taking painkillers...and the most terrible thing is that i want to cry... like earlier i smiled without any reasons, now i cry without any reasons, or may be there is still some reason... i dont know...today it is the worst day in my new life, i tried to live and think positive.. i tried to be a good person, am i a good one? i dont know... how can one good person feel so badly, do i really deserve these all... may be yes, but may be i'm wrong... it is difficult to admit that i am a bad one, but when i'm good what have i done to feel like that? and do we always get what we deserve? what if we get more then we can bear? i still think that people are not good or bad, we are different, just some of us are more bad and the others are more good, so what i am, more good, or more bad? so many questions and no answers... who can give me the answers? another silly question... i need to work now, but i cant, i need to eat something, but i cant, i need to stop terrorising myself, but i cant... what if this all is just my fault? sorry, a question again. i will be good, i promise - i will change myself and think only positive like tara does :) but not today and may be not tomorrow, and even not the day after tomorrow, just some day i will start thinking positive, ok?

enjoy your weekend, you all!!!

Who?

Posted by abhay on Apr. 1, 2006 at 04:49-Link

are you making a promise to? and why? You are as good as anyone in this world can be. :)

Have a wonderful day!