black or brown? part 2

Posted on Mar. 31, 2006 at 10:25 - Post Comment

u know what i'm afraid of.... i'm afraid of indifference... once you start to trust people (and it is really hard for me to start trusting people because i experienced so much betrayals in my life) u are still afraid that they can betray you in being indifferent to what you are feeling. i am afraid that people who walked in my life and whom i love will exactly as easy as they walked in walk out ... i hope u know what i mean... i'm afraid that they will kill me with their indifference, and i will never be able to recover... life wasnt easy for me, it is not easy now and i know that it wont be much easy in the future... in the end there is only me who i can count on... and may be it is better so... when u dont have to rely on other people u wont experience disappointments... and thats good, because i'm tired of disappointments.

earlier i had a choice: black or brown... now i dont have to choose. it is definitely black.  

sorry for being so pessimistic, just a bad mood, pains, flu, and loneliness made me feel  like that...

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Posted by Anonymous on Apr. 1, 2006 at 04:43-Link

Life's defintely not black, may be a little grey sometimes but we all have to live with that. I wish I could be of some help to you...but such is life it doesn't allow you to do what you like all the times. :(

Have a good day!