dont ask me how i feel

Posted on Mar. 31, 2006 at 08:08 - Post Comment

please dont ask me how i feel because i feel terrible. i thought yesterday was a bad day... actually it was, but then i guess today is a very bad day, it started terible, well i can say that yesterday didnt finish, it just continued.... u know i couldnt sleep this night and i cant eat, i also cant concentrate on anything. i forgot to mention that i am ill, first i thought that i just caught cold, but now i guess it is flu, i have fever and feel terrible besides i have my pains back (i have been living without them for almost 3 months), and i had to take lots of medicine, because i had to come to work today because i need to finish work at one project...may be it is silly but it is just me... i am silly because i could think that everything is possible, but there are things which i cant understand, cant control... i always knew that life is hard, but i tried to be strong... and then i've got this stupid mail ....and i failed...i guess i cant be strong anymore... have been crying like a baby for the whole night, i know thats stupid, just a depression, may be because of this neverending winter. but today it is raining, the first rain in this year. i like raining because it corresponds so well with my current mood ;) 

i hope u all will have a good weekend, i will go tomorrow to the ice scating show (even the flu wont stop me from it), i wanted to go with my friend but she changed the plans so i will go alone, most of all i would like to go with someone very special but he is far away and seems not to want to talk to me. ok, thats his right, even when it hurts so much...

have a wonderful day everyone and i will try also, even when it is hard but i will really try it...

Have you

Posted by abhay on Apr. 1, 2006 at 04:32-Link

heard of a song called 'NO woman no cry' by Bob Marley. You should listen to it, then you will know why crying is not any good. :)
Too bad that you are going alone for the show. :( Wish I could be there with you. ;) Never mind. Just be happy. :)

Have a very beautiful day!