black or brown?

Posted on Mar. 22, 2006 at 17:51 - Post Comment

i think i am tired.... tired of work, of people, of everything (well almost of everything) but i cant concentrate on anything - it is so hard. when i was at university i was in such condition after exams, but after then there was always vacation... i think that is what i need right now - vacation, rest, no winter, no work, no people, please... just want to be left alone, well ... not really alone but with someone very special... pity it is impossible right now and it makes me feel so sad that i want to cry...of course i wont cry but ... life is hard, now i hate it because it makes impossible for me to be with the one i love... i think i just really got tired because it is so unlike me to hate life and to hate something at all, i very seldom have this feeling of being helpless, but this feeling really drives me crazy! i hardly  can think about something positive right now ... and it is a very dangerous sign of something like the upcoming depression. everything is so ...black or... brown. i really hope that it is just a phase.. and wont last for long :)

anyways i wish a very wonderful day (can the day be very wonderful?... i doubt) to everyone

the working day is almost over and i will go home in 10 mins...

may be the evening will be better than the day

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Posted by missbhaven83 on Mar. 22, 2006 at 20:57-Link

Hey chick,
I hope you are okay...you always leave me great words of wisdom and its about time its my turn. I have definitely felt the same way you do right now. Life is funny because you just never really know. Try to keep your spirits up and try not to let things get to you because they will if you let them. I am here if you want to talk...take care...xoxo

i'm sorry...

Posted by Anonymous on Mar. 23, 2006 at 04:37-Link

i think i am so selfish because i had no idea that you are also suffering as badly as i am. i haven't been doing such a good job looking after you so have got to start getting myself back together for you again. you're the most precious person in my life and when you are sad it affects me twice as hard as it does you. i will work harder at making you happy from this day on. i love you, lena.

Please

Posted by abhay on Mar. 23, 2006 at 11:47-Link

don't cry..or even think of crying. I hate to see people crying...and life is too beautiful and short to hate it. Just give it a thought. :)

Have a wonderful (?) day!!