Venting 24/7

body image

I recently went shopping for swimsuits, which for a person who is a size 5-6 shouldnt be a problem, but it is. I have a horrible body image, there is no getting around it, my legs are the good part of my body, and my arms are just digusting. I have fat deposits in between my arms and breasts. I have never been able to get rid of them. I know that they are gross, just like the rest of my upper body, but i try to cover them. I dont wear tank tops, the only time they are visible is in bathing suits. Yet i feel disgusting, that every guy i think is cute is going to look at me and be immedatly turned off. But i have tried, most likely futile, to reduce these fat pockets. Hopefully they will go down and i will not feel this way anymore. We I still will but it will be about my stomach. My hips are slender but stomach is not. Thats why i am a size 5-6, my hips have no fat, its all right about my pant line. What can you do, i am watching my food intake and am trying to work out more. But my medications do make me keep weight on, so it is all about balance and what i think to be the right weight, not anyone else.  I can tell you though i will not stop until i lose those fat pockets near my arms. They need to go away soon, and hoepfully my workouts will do that.

Elliotte Spencer