im back from barnsley, where i was spending christmas hols and things are as bad as ever.

i cant handle this.

i did something stupid this year at christmas. i let myself get stressed and depressed ..... and then i tried to take an overdose.

i was out for 12 hours straight.

then i got so depressed on christmas day i took another overdose.

im obviously still here though, and my system is pretty f*ck*d up but, well at least i still have my health, right?

my lifes a big joke, i cant cope with this, im getting picked on by everyone, even people who i consider as friends and i just cant cope.

sarahs at it again, kicking me every break, every lunch time, every day, kicking me, pulling my hair, getting mud all over  my trousers so i look like a scruff and gives people even more reason to pick on me.

she gets to me so much , ive started smoking again and cutting myself.

i just want to end it.

im just sitting here and i want to cry so much. i hate my life