Detrimental Entanglement

"Girlfriending"

Jason's girlfriend had the baby.
I'm an aunt.
Jason sent me the pictures, and now I'm crying. For the first time in forever, they're happy tears, genuine happiness.
Jacob Robert Henry. The little boy with three first names...Born 2/11/06 (I just the e-mail). I don't know why I'm still crying, because I'm convinced that everything is alright.
He'll have the best father, a good life.
I wish you could see him, he is adorable. And he has every opportunity to succeed.

Children. Life. Scary.

"Come on Jacob, let's go to fun Aunt Val's."

I'm a pretty bad girlfriend.
I don't know when to quit.
I have trouble with love, with honesty and trust. Trouble with comittment.
You're insane.
I love you.

I say things I don't mean, quite frequently. That is never one of them.

I don't try to be cruel and inconsiderate.
I don't plan on saying the meanest thing I can think of.
Maybe I'm a little sociopathic.

More nightmares... which means I'm getting less sleep again.
I thought about calling you again last night, like old times, at some ungodly hour, because I kept seeing her cold hands.
Lifeless.

I can't shake the image. Where do I run to when I'm afraid?
Why can't I let anyone know the truth?

Why am I so afraid of admitting it...



Pi

9:30 PM - Thursday, February 23, 2006 - post comment

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Insanity is a virtue.

Me - 10:11 PM - Thursday, February 23, 2006

Jacob Robert Henry

I feel a little sorry for the kid. well i guess he has his options

Marissa - 3:58 PM - Sunday, February 26, 2006

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