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| I was a cocky( in terms of interpersonal relationshipz) naive, self righteous, and spoiled. In terms of guyz ( the ones i fell for) i was clingy, jealous, possesive, and non trusting...in terms of self..i was non decisive, non assertive...and a plain ol push over. My life used to be full of pain, but i finally said NO MORE. Thre differenc between now and then is that i finally have help..... |
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nigh my tooth started to hurt again ( which really really sucked) lol
by 4 am i was up taking a vicodene and by 9 oclock i'd taken another
one. Well lunch time rolled around ( 11: 20) i ate a lil bit of the noodles and pears, next thing i know my tum is ALL messed up. I went a good 2 hours before i actually threw up, but it was a hard task. I poured salt into my mouth( when we were kids we used salt to prevent us from puking), i tried a piece of cheese, a pepsi, ..it all seemed to make it worse, and the more i tried to fight it, the worse it got. So....( with the coaching of D) I grabbed bucket and went out back. It was GROSS...i saw the noodles and pears come out in the bucket, it sucked because it hurt my tummy badly....it's always such a strain and i don't know why. ( Yayyyy) my lil nephew is coming over, I'm so happy =) I haven't seen him in awhile, and good news it's just him lol....his siter dropped him today, i was pretty pissed about that, my mom said she fussed at her, but immediately felt bad afterwards. Work was coo....after my co-worker and i exchanged waterworks, we barely spoke to one another today. It wasn't intentional..just one of those things...oh ..and her daughter ..the worst in my class..had a GREAT day today. She went right to sleep , she helped her friend's color in the line, she cleaned up , and most importantly..she listened! I gave her a badge that read," good job Emma!" she was very proud of it, and so was her mother. It really makes me happy when my kids do something tha even they have to feel proud of. They're learned the days of the week....it does my heart so well to hear them sing the lil song , it makes me feel even better because i didn't need some class to teach me how to teach my kids. Sometimes i feel like the girl next to me is a better teacher, she seems to have better ideas and her class seems to have more fun. But then, i have to keep in mind that 85% of her ideass come from random books( I've seen the books, and seen one of "her" cool ideas in them) I'm not knocking her...but i realize i dun have to feel upstaged by her because all of my ideas come from my head. Anyway, i do truly love teaching, it is my 'calling' and purpose in life. My kids love me, and I love them, even on days like today when all i wanted to do was be left alone. Lastly, ( from now on this subject will always be last) i've been having trouble reading my "gut", especially when it deals with guys. There's a saying, be careful what u ask for, i'm always asking for a boyfriend,but everytime a guy comes around, i become super suspicious, doubtful....i thought it started with D, but it actually only got worse with him. I believe that he won't cheat or give me reason to worry, but now i jus ponder if he's the "one" for me. Ah well, this weekend will be very interesting. Tee is pulling one of "his" tricks, his standoffish attitude..which didn't start til he heard about my plans. Hmm, i wish were more direct, although i know what's he's feeling..i'm no mind reader, so...ppl ..when u have a problem with a mate ..just tell them. | ||
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| u haven't written anything for awhile and i can't help but to feel worried about u. hoping you're doing well and finally getting that tooth taken care of.
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| I'm alive hehe, and my tooth is still a problem for me =( The weekend that D came to see me it started hurting again, very badly, so the following week which would be last thursday i went to the clinic ( i dun have insurance and can't afford a real dentist =/ ) to get it removed only for them to tell me they can't do it, azzholes! So i'm still stuck with the tooth, BUT, my friend Corey told me to rub the vicodene along my gumline and since then it hasn't given me too many problems. I've been in a sucky mood lately, i think it has to do with my life not going the way i thought it would be going at this point in time, but it's ok. I frequent ur blog as well, i jus rarely comment =p | |||
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