every
year my dad's side of the family would host a Christmas party
where everyone would come and we'd have a talent show. Well...we
haven't done tha in about three years and this year we did something
different. Yesterday started out badly for me, i was such a *****, i
was in a horrible mood and it showed =/ Anyway i went and hung out with
Tw and im sure he could tell wha kinda mood i was in. Anyway we went to
wal-mart where i got a lot of looks from old peverted azz men lol We
were gonna go look at christmas lights but something came up....when i
got home mom said we were going to my brother's house to open our gifts
there instead of waiting til morning and having him and his fam come
here.
The idea was nice in thought, but my sis -n- law does things
differently...she's not warm and welcoming....so we always feel kinda
weird being there...but we take all our gifts from under our tree and
take them over there, when we get to my beother's house we see that
they already have a huge, MASSIVE amount of presents under their
tree..the kind of tree we used to have as kids from back in the day
lol, i was jus amazed tha their presents took up all theire floor
space in their living room...so im like" we're ognna be here all
night!" and my sis comes in and is like "nah...we're not opening all
our gifts..just the ones u guys brought" so i burst out, "man , what's
the point of us coming over here then?' My mom later told me that it
was rude the way i said it, but i honestly didn't mean it that way lol
So before we evern go over there my mom has our neighbor make some
chilli for us to take over, i'm thinking EWWW no way am i eating
anything from her house because well..she looks gross..she smokes, and
has mechanic hands..u know all black and greasy looking...so i say this
to my mom and she basically slaps me with her eyes,i felt bad for my
comment, but i was jus being honest. So im sitting there so hungry at
my bro's house and im like F-- it..i go for the chilli and it's
GREAT..best dern chilli I've ever had lol...so i literally ate my
words. My mom enjoyed seeing me eat the chilli, she kept ocming
around saying," tha o' chilli aint to bad huh?" By the end of the night
i apologized for my snotty behavior, and my sis n law also gave in and
opened the monstrasidy(sp) of gifts...all in all it was a nice
change....
I'm not feeling much better,, it comes and goes..when i'm with my
brother's i'm at my best, but deep down i still feel the pain. I can't
take much more of this mopey depressed feeling, i need to do 2 things,
get back to my relationship with God, and working out....the best
depression fighters. Merry Christmas everyone..and sorry to anyone who
knows me tha i've been a snotty lil ***** towards...unless of course u
deserved it lol
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