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must be something in the water..cuz everyone is crying these days. I'm
shocked, cuz i'm the last to cry..david my bro has cried, D has cried,
even tyrus cried last night...and me? Not til this morning, i've been
real sad lately, i've felt very low and just plain miserable, but i h
aven't cried. It wasn't til talking to tee on the phone this morning
about him crying last night and then about how im gonna get back in the
gym cuz working out makes me feel good inside and outside...and he said
u yeah get back in the gym or get ur vibrator going,u need to get ut
rocks off or maybe u jus need a hug, and i was like no...i need my
dad...and then it hit me....duhhh...first Christmas without the old
guy, i remeber lass christmas i had to drag him out of bed to open
gifts cuz he didn't "feel" like getting up..Christmas used to be his
fav holiday..oh shoot gotta go...finish lata..ok im back...so if i
didn't get him out of bed last year , he would of missed his last
AChristmas..i mean i dun think he knew it was gonna be his last
Christmas but i wasn't about to let him miss wha used to be his fav
holiday....it was worth me basiclaly carrying my dad down the staris( i
walked in front and he jus leaned on me all the way down) he got a lot
of stuff last year, and we had a good time. Last year for his birthday
was also the first year he'd ever had a gbirthday party...it was very
nice, everyone came out, he had a nice cake, and most importantly..it
was a suprise! As soon as i brought him through the door he start
dancing...it was so nice to see him that happy *sigh* i dun think
anyone took pics...and tha was his last birthday as well. Overall , i
think we made my dad's last year here as nice and comfortable as we
possibly could, but i jus have to tell myself tha he's not in pain
anymore, so it's better this way.
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