Despite
the way things have been going with me and Tee lately , it's still
getting easier to put my feelings at bay for him. He's still a great
guy and still makes me feel like we're the only people in the room when
we are together, but..i know he isn't "the guy" for me, and i don't
want to end up 'stuck" in a relationship with the wrong guy.
I'm still pretty frustrated when it comes to guys tho. I
don't feel guilty about me and Tee anymore, but i decided to have an
open mind about someone, even though i find it hard sometimes. Maybe
it's the distance thing, i'd feel so much better if there weren't so
many problems with us, i mean it's hard to make things right
again and try to re~build feelings with such distance, i'm not going
into anything 'blindly' you know how love can do tha to ya,
but instead now im being forced to think, think, think, and constantly
think , and sometimes i don't wanna think, sometimes i dun wanna
'evuluate' sometimes i jus wanan 'go with it' everytime i think
about it, i start to think of all the things tha happened tha i didn't
like, and everything is so fresh in my mind, when so far off is
his, he can't recall crap..when i have it memorized, i'll make a list
tonight of all the pro's and con's and putting anymore time and effort
into this, it's jus sometimes i feel like if u've already given a
person all of u and they didn't take it, do u have anything left to
give them?
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