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| I was a cocky( in terms of interpersonal relationshipz) naive, self righteous, and spoiled. In terms of guyz ( the ones i fell for) i was clingy, jealous, possesive, and non trusting...in terms of self..i was non decisive, non assertive...and a plain ol push over. My life used to be full of pain, but i finally said NO MORE. Thre differenc between now and then is that i finally have help..... |
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feel kinda bad...like the only reason i'm getting his full commitment
now is because she turned him down, no no i'm sorry, didn't return the
feelings? he will deny it of course and say oh no it wasn't and isn't
like that, but how can i not feel that way? lol blah Happy Hour --- J , Tw and i went to happy hour after work , it was pretty cool, i'd like to make it a weekly routine, we're all "kinda" in the same boat, feeling kinda lonely, so why should i spend time with loser guys who mean nothing, when i can hang with friends ! Work was coo except for the randomn pounding headache? =/ Gosh, it hurt so bad tha i laid on the floor flat on my back, everyone thought i was crazy lol...but i was also very drowsy, tha dern mcDonald's ! Lastly Tee, My feelings are slowly deminishing for him. I still enjoy his time and his company, but i don't "crave" it the way i used to hehe ..seems weird to say that, but it's true. And it's weird because things are slowly starting to get back to usual with us, and now i can handle it better, i have a better sense of control on my feelings for him . Oh yea, B... we do not talk to each other on the phone AT ALL, unless we are trying to make plans to hang out hehe ..i find it's best that way, because he's a d.o.g, and i am fully aware of it. And...i think he thinks i'm a heart breaker,,,i gather tha from him always bringing up how i stopped 'talking' to him and started talking to his friend. In B's words,' that better not happen this time' ..But if B only knew WHY i did tha lol anyway i'm gonna go. LaCe** | ||
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