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| I was a cocky( in terms of interpersonal relationshipz) naive, self righteous, and spoiled. In terms of guyz ( the ones i fell for) i was clingy, jealous, possesive, and non trusting...in terms of self..i was non decisive, non assertive...and a plain ol push over. My life used to be full of pain, but i finally said NO MORE. Thre differenc between now and then is that i finally have help..... |
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have another blog site that i go to, i started to write there today ,
but that isn't really where i belong. I belong here. I only
joined there because someone else was there, and that someone invited
their friends to come and join, to be able to share his thoughts, when
i found that i out, i was kinda hurt, like hmm i thought i was his
friend too...but ah well. The only thing i like about it is that no one
else really knows i go there, so i feel free to write whatever and
exactly how i feel. But here, even though i've never met any of the readers, i feel embraced. There i feel like i'm "intruding" , I don't even like to comment in their J, cuz i feel like i'm not supposed to be there in the first place lol it kinda dumb. But, going there has alot of bad memories for me, so i decided i'm not gonna go anymore. I'm trying to turn my life around,in all my reading, and my personal confessions, I am confused. The past 4 mos has been the craziest,a person who has always been there for me as a friend, has turned into so much more. I'm really scared of it though, I pray that if it is not pleasing to God he gives me the strength to walk away, but lately, all we do is talk about God, and pray for each other. So it's very confusing, i'd like to know his purpose in my life. But I'm tyring to get my life together, and nothing is more important right now than God, so i want to please him, i have been trying to keep him first. I feel much guilt for things I've done, i have always been strong , but this new temptation comes right when im trying to be better for God, and i just give in to it.I know that it isn't too late to make it right, i'm just not good with guilt. But, i know what i have to do, and i will do it. | ||
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| Hi,
Just wanted to see what you were up to. Love Ya, Passion I'm sure everything with your friend will work out. | |||
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