It's
so nice to have a place to come and share your feelings, without being
judged. I really love reading the comments, and appreciate the
uplifting kind words. God is very real, i know and believe that,
and i do feel that no person can complete you, that when entering
a relationship you should already be a complete person =) I guess, I'm
just finding it hard to actually do it, to feel fulfilled all on my
own. I do things for myself, i jog to keep myself in shape and healthy,
i really don't do it for the gratification of the world, of the
'skinny" people hehe i want to be a more complete person so that when
guys act up or i don't have one it doesn't feel like the end of the
world to me. I've been working on it =p
On a side note, i feel proud of myself, i researched and got through
the core of my business plan, someone else is helping me with the
layouts, and my business manager( my mom lol) was supposed to be
helping me with the financial aspects, but i found out that she has
spent 100 k in like 3 months and feels very pressured, so her focus is
on rebuilding her own foundation before she can help me with
mine. I totaly get and understand that, but it just means i myself have
to kick it into high gear. She wants me to get a ful time job now
because her funds are running low and she can't support me, but i
can't. If i do, i'll never start my business, i will get a part time
job though, and start helping her more with her business so she won't
feel so overwhelmed and so i can also have a few extra bucks in my
pocket..that i actually worked for, because i hate hate hate asking her
for cash.
Back to the subject at hand though, i need to start reading my daily affirmations again
( that i wrote myself because they are core things i need to work
on) and start reading my short term goals a loud every morning.
The mind is a tricky thing and you can have what you say. I am built
for greatness, it's time i tap into that. I have so many dreams on
hold...
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