If
you think i'm attractive and willing to work to get me, there's always
gonna be someone who thinks the same, but willing to work harder.
So Tyrus will be here in a few hours....part two of last night ( which
nothing really happened) I'm really contemplating telling him about
Josh, my old high school crush who lately i've been thinking more and m
ore about. Tyrus is about to rekindle the flame with his ex, i wanna
rekindle the same with Josh. i'M NOT SURE HOW HE'LL TAKE IT
THOUGH,..i'm not trying to make him jealous, i jus want him to know tha
he isn't the only guy who might be interested in me, but not only tha
who'll also treat me good.
I dun know why i gave so much to Tyrus, i guess because i hoped he was
my chance to have a real relationship, at least with someone who lives
in the same city. I got caught up in playing house,and he showed me a
lot of new, exciting things. It was kind of like i didn't think i'd
find a guy who i liked and who liked me who'd treat me the way he did
and i hyped myself up so much . But after being kinda mopey today i
realized tha he isn't the only "nice guy" in the city. There are plenty
of guys out there who can treat me tha way, and better.
I wish i felt differently for Twyon, i really do. I'm not sure how
romantic he is, but i do know tha i LOVE and now NEED romance in a
relationship, it jus makes me feel so girly and special lol.
I don't know why Tyrus is putting off the actual" working on
things with his ex" I know he doesn't want to let me go, but...
all i know is after every 'romance" ends for me, I always feel the same
way. I'm really tired of feeling this way , if some guy doesn't want
me...his loss . If i see Josh again, i will ask tha we stay in
touch , i don't want to rsuah and start dating him, i'd love a chance
to jus get to know him. He's into church and has the same goofy lil
grin. I'd like to focus on friendships right now, like to have more
than 2 of them to hang out with, and especially now tha tyurs and i
wont be hanging as much, i'd really like to keep in touch with people
who understand and are coo with just being friends.
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