It's
been a long week man. At the end of it i feel a lil pooped! It's friday
night, on this day i feel a lil sad but only because i'm thinking
about my own feelings. I see others around me in couples, and i jus
wait and wonder when am i going to get my chance at that? Me telling
tyrus to go back to his ex was hard, i'm not gonna front and act like
it wasn't, but it was something i had to do . I felt his heart was
heavu, carrying a burden of still loving his ex, but just being
frustrated with her antics. I didn't want to continue getting close
with him, and reach a point much deeper than we are now, just to have
him be like, " i dun think i gave it a fair try with my ex" Right now,
while i was able to do it, i did it.
Telling Dakota to do the same was Anna was the same thing. I can't
keep falling for guys who have someone else in the back of their
minds, and that lil question of "what if" will only get deeper and
deeper. So i had to do the things that are best for me now, but still
knowing that they both have something, someone to work on something
with sucks because i feel like, 'what about me, where does that leave
me?"
T didi say thank you to me for helpin him realize he should
at least try again with his ex. Tyrus also told me tha way he
feels for me he wants to keep me all to himself. Go figure
Back at square one. But instead of wallowing, i am going to keep doing what i been doing and that is focus on God.
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