I
already know im not gonna do any work today lol Well i went upstairs
because I was supposed to be getting lunch, but as usual there
was nothing up there, so oh well. Neway, my recent obsession has
gotten me all off course and no im not talking about Tyrus! I don't
know what it is or why i keep thinking about it, and watching things
about it, or listening to stories about it lol it's just like ahhh....
Anyway, i have been thinking a lot about M. I really get where she's
coming from, at first it threw me off like"why is she so upset" but
then i thought about it and it's like yes of course! I thought back to
my own feelings when i was in tha situation. It makes you kinda crazy,
it makes u come off as being kinda obsessed, it makes u wonder....
He said something profound to me when we were arguing," i get defensive
because i was defending you, because she was jealous tha i made u so
close it took you months what took her years to get from me!" And
now it makes so much more sense!
When it was me, seein someone get so close , get things from him that i
wasn't getting even though we weren't together was killing me. We
weren't together but it was wha he wanted, to my knowledge it was never
about me doing anything wrong..so if i wasn't the problem then why did
he even need her?
Well with them it diff..she was the problem, she put him down,she nags,
she curses em out, and then finding out not only does he not want to be
with her , tha he has someone else he feels treats him better is a hard pill to swallow.
I feel bad for her, i really do, but some people really have to lose
what they had before they realize how much it really was. It does get
on my nerve tha she can't let go though, with me it was like i was
waiting on him because he kept telling me lil sugarcoated things how he
wanted to work it out n stuff, but with them it was like she kept
telling him she doesnt love him anymore, tha she doesnt want it
anymore, and one day he realized he had enuff...because tha my friends
is called emotional abuse. So when u get wha u want by telling him to
go, and he finally does go, why can't u just suck it up and go on about
ur business? She call herself not liking me, well guess wha, the
feeling is mutual!
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