it
is THE place I need to be, but the main place i do not feel like going!
I am angry , upset, confused, hurt...and i feel completely validated
for being so, but i know that at church, I'm going to feel guilty for
feeling those things, and soon i will forgive and knowing me
probably seek out ways to "mend" a "friendship"?
No, it won't happen.... a few months i may even decide to sue that so
called friend for money owed to me, well he'll think i'm sueing him, i
want to write a dear john letter to em, a i completely hate you type
document, but then he'll feel like a big man, the big man to got to me.
The only thing that hurts me in this is i don't understand why or
how....why are u being so heartless to me, and why. Of course an email
was written but it was a hey, it was nice seeing you, i think we should
hang out again, a.k.a I WAS NOT BOTHERED BY YOU lassnight, what
happened? I will explain later...church.
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