Today
is wednesday..the last of our out of town guest will be leaving
tonight, hopefully tee and i can finally watch this movie i been
waiting on...thas our thing...staying in and watching movies..
Yesterday started off pretty well.i got another drawing down and worked
on another. I got a visit from my cousin around 2:30, we talked girl
talk about her DOG azz ex -boyfriend ...man why do guys always wait til
you're almost a year into the relationship to screw it up lol....why
drag it out? Neway, i'm real mad @ him for wha he did, and i don't even
know him, but.... after tha we talked about my business stuff, which
she got all into =) tha was cute..we both were jus gushing at all our
ideas...iforgot how much fun hanging out and being girly is...i miss
tha. Then...i got a call from K...who totally ruined my mood, he
sounded like a broken record, kept quoting, " you changed, you changed"
well duh..wtf do u expect after years of being a welcome mat..and then
finally jus bein like NO! I'm not gonna take it anymore lol....when i
think about ALL THE BS i went through with him/because of him, it just
hurts my heart how he does me now. Threw me all the way to the left for
CC??????? It never ceases to amze me how this world works...sluts...and
no good trifling men get things jus handed to them, and nice
girls like me have to work for it...but ahhh i'm fine working for it,
at least at the end of the night i can sleep with a clear
conscious...neway.... K knows tha i haven't been hanging out with L
anymore...like at all. After the convert July 31, tha was pretty much
it.....she came over my house on her lunch break once...but we have not
hung out..since then. Neway. not hanging out with her left me
completely dry as far as having people to hang out with....The ones in
my direct reach usually have to work , and tha would be one person, Tw,
well now two Tee. TWO people i can call and hang out with since CC
are on some kind of ego trip ( blah- stupid girls)
I
used to have so much fun chilling with K and the rest of the group, and
i'm a girl who can chill with the fellas so i was all for hanging out
jus him, me , and his friend A...but....i guess every since there was
no more kissey kissy with me and K he feels he can't hang out with me
anymore, guess i hurt his male ego or pride...i mean...but to know i'm
a friend in need....i dun wanna be stuck in the house all the time, and
everytime i call him and ask if they going out...he KNOWS i wanna go
out with them sometimes...but no..no..NOW it's everytime he calls me,
it's the day after he been hanging out with CC ...and when
i say awww..how ocme nobody asked me..he like
"i
dunno"...well...if im telling you i wanna hang out...and everytime u
call and tell me how u and cc hung out...and i tlel u i feel left
out...then the fact that u keep calling and telling me about it tells
me tha maybe he getting a kick outta hurting me lol which is pretty
sad..considering tha a lot of stuff he has now is cuz i helped him get
it....so i dun understand...how can ppl be so heartless to someone who
really cared about them???? But anyway, I'm writing him off, i
hate males and their stupid male egos ..i guess it "hurt" him so
much tha i am not dating him but someone else..and instead of jus
telling me tha, he has be cruel and try to hurt my feelings on
purpose..and it's not hard to hurt my feelings, so...going out of ur
way to do it jus makes it hurt worse..
But neway, my
cousin didn't leave til' 12:30 am, we ate steaks, and watched lifetime
movies all night lol...The last movie left me kinda jumpy..it was about
a girl who got kidnapped and kept in a warehouse... i was home alone..i
talked to tw for awhile, then Tee called and i told him about my day, i
left all the K mess out, ..he was sleepy so i let him go to bed, i
myself decide to go to bed too then my mom comes home and throws this
HUGE GIGANTIC stuffed spider on me...ewww i completely FLIP
out...i start kicking my legs and throwing my arms very wildly...i feel
like i can't breathe and i start to feel tiny spider arms all over
me...EWW i can't even type about it without freaking out *pauses to
re-gain my composure* her and our ocusin are just lauhging
hysetrically and im like please stop, please stop. She has me heemed up
in a corner pointing this thing in my face, she backs up and says"im
sorry" leaves, then i jump in my bed and put the covers over my
head...i hear her come back in and leave out..im too tense to move..but
when i do i FEEL the things body next to me on the bed and i
start bawling like a baby, " get this thing out of here ,
pleaseeeeee!" After laughing so hard i heasr them gagging for air, they
finally come and get the freak of nature....they leave me there
helpless under the covers....I call someone who's used to my spider
antics and who i knew wouldn't laugh or make me feel like 'wtf is ur
problem" D..all i wanted to do was go to sleep, and i dun even remember
wha time i finally got there.
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