This
has been a hectic week of emotions for me. First the height
thing, then the weight thing..now the other thing....ahhh.....*pulls
hair out*
This wedding may as well be my own, it's
caused me to feel a number of different things. But mainly, this damn
dress....i look like a stuffed pig =( and i'm not looking forward to
wearing it, and for an extended period of time at that .......i've come
so long...25 lbs since January and still it not enough to make me look
at least half way decent in this wedding...=( It's brought my
confidence so down and it was getting really up there....i want to
mingle and dance and have a good time..my brother is getting
married..and my family loves weddings...we love to celebrate and
daddy's gone..so we have to celebrate extra hard in his place.....so
i'm like man wtf am i gonna do...so many old skeletons gonna be at this
wedding, and i'm gonna be looking like crap....
(did i mention that bar-be-queing on the grill sucks) Anyway,....i will
try to have a good time regardless of how fat and nasty i feel..moving
on
Got some things worked out with Tee, even though i still feel really
bad. We both were so ignorant and dumb, however, i can almost
understand how we thought the way we were thinking..but still i feel
horrible (since it was my idea) taking that from me =/ and he
feels the same for me...but we agreed not to do that anymore lol...
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