I could do the typical thing
and blame my mother, who never showed me love, never gave me healthy
pushes, always puts me down even til this day, doesn't show she
believes in me, makes me feel like a worthless piece of dog crap, or i
could just say f8ck her and can't wait til i can move out and don't
have to deal with her ruthless , clueless azz. My dad was there for me,
but only when she wasn't around because she ruled everything in the
house, everyone's thoughts, everyone's opinions with her loud azz tone,
"Am i wrong, huh?" "You know i'm right." B---- u are wrong 78% of the
time, and even if u are why do u need such validation as to have
everyone saying,"ur right Ope" moving on...my brothers always had each
other, and ignore me, everytime im trying to say anything important
they jus ignore it lol..so i decided i would try to get on their level
on be a lil 'cool' tried to get more "hip' so they'd want me
around...BLAH
My first Love..M-Dawg, fa sho, whats-up! Lol my
name for him...he was so DAMN FINE...ooohh Lord. he was beautiful. But
I was so the opposite , lol short, fat, ugly, with bad clothes, and
possibly bad hygeine? Lol- hey i was very sheltered , but also no one
at home was telling me anything. Blah, neway, i was 11 he was 13, our
families were best friends, and we did nearly everything together. I
could tell he liked me, but coudlnt quite figure out why. When we were
around each
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