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| I was a cocky( in terms of interpersonal relationshipz) naive, self righteous, and spoiled. In terms of guyz ( the ones i fell for) i was clingy, jealous, possesive, and non trusting...in terms of self..i was non decisive, non assertive...and a plain ol push over. My life used to be full of pain, but i finally said NO MORE. Thre differenc between now and then is that i finally have help..... |
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New trick I've learned is to turn the pain
into anger...so on that note...I am for now on going to be like
f*ck everyone else and their feelings and guess wha, if wha u doing
doesn't appease me then f*ck u too ! I am so tired, I'm always the person giving, giving, and constantly giving to everyone else, and for wha? With D i gave my all, did he do the same, no? And even after it was over, i QUESTIONED MYSELF, roflmao...wtf was i questioning myself for, did all i could do, f*ck him if he is too dumb and immature to ACT and be a man about his, got a girl who'd do anything for you, and you STILL cant get ur ish together, f*ck it. Why should i be the one always going through so much bs just for the sake of having someone's love, f*ck them. If i got to go through that much trouble just to be with someone then obviously i aint spose to be with em. Stupid flipping men, ahhh God why did u make us so different, I have such a pure heart and all i want is someone to share it with, why, why , why the f*ck has tha been so hard for me =( Well, guess wha, I am done trying. Not giving 100 percent, not giving 50, hell u'll be lucky if u get 10! Sex? whats that? i'm not putting in any effort, and im STILL not gonna give it up, go figure! Every guy i've cared about or been interested in lately acts like they have to be a freaking rich kid , or have so much going, when none of tha matters to me, but ahh guess i WILL start looking @ the ballers, with their concieted azzes...ugh..f*ck it, no, imma jus stay single..and u know wha they say, can't beat em join em...so from now on...I am officially unatainable..to all. | ||
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| Man i hate to know you feel like that becuz thats one of your best features. Don't let a few guys change that about you. I know what you going threw tho. Becuz i feel the same about females right about now, as a matter of fact i have a entry that looks and sounds alot like yours.
I'll prob delete it cuz its so not me, just like this is so not you, anyway keep your head up k? Some guy will come along a give you want you want, but you shouldn't expect everyone to treat you like you treat them, weather they love you or not...It just doesn't work out that way most times. I've come to realize that.... | |||
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| ahh, i don't expect everyone to treat me the way i treat them. With my last boyfriend i didn't expect him to love to the depth i did, i didn't expect him to do anything, what i wanted him to do was something he oculdn't, just ...love me, with no guilt or uncomfortable notions behind it. That's what I'm sick of, no guy i come across can do that, and I'm not gonna worry about it anymore, as i said, f*ck em. | |||
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| I'm sure he loved you... | |||
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