For u who read my blog yesterday u saw that i was feeling "down"....but im feeling much, much better today. I had to get sum stuff off my chest...sometimes in church my bishop will tell us to find someone to  confess our sinz to..( not as in the catholic m church where they  confess to a preist seeking forgiveness for  we dun believe that any MAN can forgive u of ur sinz) he jus feels that telling someone can help with the guilt u may feel. And thas exactly wha i did lassnight. I told my closest friends and family memberz the things i was hurting from and the guilt i kept buried inside After releasing the guilt verbally  I instantly felt better....

I've been a journey to become a better Christian and stronger person over all. The closer u get to God the more trials and tribulations u will be faced with( i will find the exact scripture for u) and tha is to make u weak and make u turn ffrom God, it's a trick to make u feel like, " God knows im trying to be near him so why is he letting all this bad stuff happen, it aint worth it" I've gone through ALOT this past year alone, and my best friend walked away...it hurt like hell lol but only cuz i THOUGHT i needed him to get through this hard time, but through all this i learned i don't. I thought i needed my friends and family to step up and help me, help me during these trying times, but i don't...i'm not supposed to lean on them. I'm supposed to lean on God...which i admit is hard, but in my heart  the reward will be worth the pain.

To anyone going through, be strong, don't give up, u will have set backs, u will cry, u will hurt, u will beg for the tribulations to end, but through it all remember God will never ever leave u or forsake u, and if u can't hear his voice trust his plan.

And the people u lose in the meanwhile ( because friendshipz will end, and new temptations will be thrown before u) let them go, whatever u do don't waste a lot of time and energy fighting for someone who wants to go, because thats time and energy taking away from God and the journey u set out to embark on.

Stay faithful.. faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.